What doesn't kill you makes you stronger :)

Hi everyone :)

So I have been on my placement now for 2 weeks, and I absolutely love it. It's so relaxed in some ways, yet not in so many other ways. I'm free to teach how I want to teach, and deal with the children how I feel right, but I have to still do session plans, all ready for Friday for the next week, and it's an awful lot of work. I'm in a Reception/Year 1 mixed class, so we have children between 4 and 6, and they're just a fantastic bunch. I mean they're challenging, really challenging, but that makes it so much more worthwhile.

If there's anything I've learnt from my first 2 weeks of placement, is that whatever doesn't kill you, makes you stronger. There's been a couple of things that have tried to set me back in this placement, and I've just risen above them and dealt with them, instead of letting them make me break down.

OK so there have been some things I've let slip by on this placement (I'm no wonder woman!) and they are pretty important things really. I've not been the best with my diet, and I have done no exercise whatsoever, and I'm really disappointed in myself. My meals are fine, it's when I buy bits of chocolate and crisps to snack on :/

When I come home (I usually get back around 5.30 -6pm) all I want to do is get in to bed and do whatever work I have to do for the next day, then chill and watch TV. It's so nice to have time to myself, and to chill, but I'm determined to try and go on some walks this week. I know it's exercise, but I do find that when I go for a walk, with my music on, and the fresh air, just chills me out and I can have some me time. I'm definitely determined to do it at least 3 or 4 times this next week. Also I'm fighting to cut down on the snacks this week. It's OK to have a tiny treat a day, but in my case at the moment that consists of a chocolate bar and a bag of crisps, and that's NO GOOD.

Anyway, I thought I'd just share my thought's with everyone, and hope everyone is doing well :)
Lots of love,
Fat Girl
xox

Additional NY resolution!

Hey everyone :) So I'm currently sat in Bolton train station waiting for... You guessed it, a train! I was supposed to be getting one at 9.25 buy it was cancelled so I'm having to wait until 10! I know I have already done a new years resolution post, but this situation made me think, and I've decided to add another resolution to the list! -Always be on time. I'm pretty much one of those people who are always on time, if not early, but it is so easy in the mornings to sleep in more rather than get up, or to just dawdle instead of getting somewhere swiftly. But if someone is waiting for you then I think it is rude to make them wait longer than they have to. If you say you are going to be there at a certain time, then make sure you are, or you have an amazing excuse (like your train being cancelled haha!). Anyway, just thought i'd add that to the list, and let you all know :) I'm sorry this blog is boring and picture-less but I don't really know how to add a picture on my phone!! Lots of Love, Fat Girl xox

Healthy fry up :)

Hey everyone :)

So, as a student, I like going out for a few (possibly more) drinks. People are pretty much split up in to two groups, people who cannot possibly eat while hungover and people who have to eat when hungover.
Guess which one I am?
So usually something like a McDonalds or a big greasy fry up would suffice, but obviously with starting slimming world, this isn't really an option for me now.
The idea came to me when my mum said we were having a cooked breakfast for our tea (strange, I know, but tasty). I had to come up with a way that I could make mine accessible, because I hate 'healthy eating' when it has to be boring and eating the same foods over and over.

So a normal fry up looks like this:

This was my fry up on Christmas morning, and it consisted of fried eggs, fried bread (my absolute favourite thing in the whole world), beans, hash browns, bacon, sausages and it did have mushrooms before I took the picture ha. Everything was fried. In full fat oil.

This is more reminiscent of what I had tonight:

Except the bacon had no fat on it, there was no tomatoes. My eggs were poached, my bacon and sausages were grilled (I had 1 & 1/2 sausages, which made 6.5 Syns) and my mushrooms were fried in Less than 1 kcal oil spray, which is free on slimming world.

Now which one looks more appetising!? My whole meal was 6.5 syns, and I added a few more for some tomato ketchup. This makes an amazing breakfast (hangover or no hangover!), a beautiful lunch and a delicious tea!!

Lots of Love,
Fat Girl xox

End of an era!

Hey everyone :)

So I finally handed in my dissertation today! The feeling is crazy good, the relief is massive and it's just like a humungous weight lifted off my shoulders!

So I re-joined Slimming World last night, and although I've had a dodgy start with today (we went for a meal to celebrate handing the dissertations in...) I'm once again determined to lose weight. I was pretty happy with being 18 stone 1 pound, OK so I'm not happy I weigh that in any shape or form, but I weighed that when I started Slimming World last time (I can't work out how many weeks ago that was?!) so that means in like 6 to 8 (ish?!) weeks, I have had Christmas, New Year, the birth of my niece and writing my dissertation, that I have only put on the minimal amount of weight I lost last time. I was pretty chuffed with that results.

But today I thought I'd share with you my 'thinspirational' picture. You might have seen it if you follow me on twitter (@CharlMathews) but I thought I'd share it on here too.....

That's me in the middle there. I was about 15-16 there (I'm rubbish with placing myself in the past) and I thought I was huge. I think my body dysmorphia there has made me what I am today. I literally thought I was a whale compared to everyone else, and figured I may as well eat what I wanted because I would never be skinny. Oh why don't we appreciate things when we have them? Or don't in have the weight in my case!

Anyway I'm going to keep you updated on how I do at slimming world, and some recipes etc :) This blog really shall be flourishing within no time!!!

Love you all loads,
Fat Girl xox

Happy New Year!

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!

I don't know about you but I'm so excited that it's a new year. There are so many negative people out there that moan about people making resolutions and being excited for a fresh start, so I just want to be positive! I mean I know you don't have to wait until a new year comes around to set a goal for yourself, but it's the perfect time to :)
My new years resolutions are:
1. To lose 4 stone. This may seem quite a lot, but I think it's really do-able in a year. That's a stone every 3 months, so that's only 0.2lb a week! I would love to lose at least 2 stone by the time I go on holiday, which is in 25 weeks on Monday though.... I am back at slimming world on Thursday! I haven't been for the last couple of weeks, as I've been moving home, but back on with it now!
2. To do more things. This may sound ridiculous, but I do find with having low self-esteem I won't go out as much as I want too, and I will convince myself that all I want to do is stay in and snuggle up and be alone. But I really don't want. Even when I really don't want to go somewhere, I usually have the best time and thank myself for going, so this year is going to be full of that!
3. Me and my friend Becca both have this resolution - To make an effort every time we go out of the house. It sounds ridiculous, but in her words 'It'll do just isn't good enough anymore'. I want to look my nicest at all times, and especially with my self-esteem being low with my weight, doing my hair and make-up, and wearing a nice outfit can make me feel a hell of a lot better!
4. BLOG MORE! I know I haven't blogged much recently, but I have finished my dissertation, I have just printed both copies out. They are being bound on Thursday and handed in on Friday! I know I have placement coming up, but I no longer work at weekends so I will have some time to blog.
5. Appreciate my friends and family more. I know how much I love them, but sometimes I worry that they don't, because I don't show it. I find it easy to make excuses to not go places because I'm feeling really low, and then I don't get to see my friends and this makes me so sad. Also, my family do everything for me, so I need to do more for them.
6. Be a bit more daring... I did start this one off on 28th December by getting my cartilage pierced, but it's not all about getting piercings, but things like taking risks, putting my thoughts across, daring to do something a bit different!!

I think those are pretty good resolutions! What are you resolutions?
I really have missed this!
Lots of Love,
Fat Girl
xox

New Piercing!

Hey everyone :)

I am aware it has been a lengthy period of time since I blogged last and I apologise.
I also apologise that this is not going to be a long blog... at all...
I have my my dissertation due in Jan 6th, so after then I shall be much more frequent!

This is just a little blog to say... Look at my new piercing!

Do you like?! (It's the one in my cartilage by the way hehe)

I was getting it done after my last day at my work, as I'm finishing there after 6 1/2 years, my boss' paid for it for me! Score!!

I love it, it's a bit sore after I've just cleaned it (it bled again).

The guy did it with a needle, and he said my cartilage was really thick, it took him a while to get it through ha just my luck!

Anyway, hope you love as much as me,

Hope you had an amazing Christmas.

Lots of Love,

Fat Girl

xox

Christmas Wish List :)

Hi Everyone :)

This post is going to seem really materialistic to some people, but I always think it's just fun to make a 'wishlist' of things, if money was no object, what I would like from Father Christmas this year. Really most of my things aren't overly expensive individually, but put them all together and it would be one expensive Christmas!!

So let's get going.....

The Naked 2 Palette! Although it is not being released in the UK until mid-January :( I love love love my other Naked palette, and although I use that every day,  I wouldn't mind bringing another palette in to the mix ;) I've heard very good reviews! Just strange that they've added a small lipgloss instead of a primer potion... It was a little God-send last time.

Ideally, I would have loved the Michael Buble Christmas CD before Christmas, so I could listen to it and get in the mood, but I would settle getting it for Christmas!! I love his voice, especially on the clips of the Christmas CD I've heard :) You can buy it here or on iTunes, or in lots of music shops of course!

This beautiful bag! OK so it's a copy, and I'm not quite sure what of (I've seen celebrities with them, but to be honest I've heard the copies are ace, so not too bothered about the real version when the copy is £30!). You can buy them here and other blogger's, such as Zoella and Sprinkle of Glitter, have raved about and love them :)

The Revlon 9427U Touch Control Mirror. I have needed a new make-up mirror for forever now, and quite a few of my friends have this one. It looks amazing, and I just love the fact there is the light around the mirror, as when I'm up at 7am, and Kane is still in bed, he doesn't like me turning the 'big light' on as it wakes him up (of course!) so this is perfect. It's also good for when I'm at home as the natural light in my room is atrocious, and even the artificial light isn't at a good angle. You can get it on Amazon here and it costs around £26.67.

Anything from this website really. I love it! The clothes are appropriate for girls of the larger size, and are just beautiful. Here are a few of my favourites....

This dress is only £19.75! How amazing is that. Perfect LBD for the Winter, team with a black cardigan and some tights and you're away!

I really like this jumper. I don't know why, I can't put my finger on it, but I just really like it. Plus it's £18.75....

How snug does that jumper look?! And a steal at £17.99, when it originally RRP at £24.75.

How beautiful is this!? I love that it's not tight fitted, but has the gorgeous detail on the shoulder. Amazing. £24.75!

I LOVE this aviator Jacket, it looks so snug and warm!! And just something a bit different... and only £25.73 when it originally RRP at £36.75! I may have to treat myself to this one at some point in the future...

And finally... House Season Three! Me and Kane are hooked on House, and finished Season 2 in a weird order (we were very confused and only realised when it came to the final episode... Heartbroken is not the word). I love Hugh Laurie and I love medical dramas, so this is my perfect show! Desperate to watch it!! You can buy it here at £13.97.

So my wishlist is not too long, or too expensive (although some things aren't even in the shops yet!) and I definitely don't expect any of them, but it's nice to just compile a little list and see what things you can buy yourself in the future as a treat for yourself.

Hope your having a lovely Christmas so far!!

Lots of Love,

Fat Girl

xox

P.S. Naked 2 Palette picture is from here :)